I remember not being able to separate
my gig anxiety from my fearoftheunknown anxiety
as we got into the car for our little adventure
well, you knew where we were going
and I was just content being a part of your past and
your present in one fell swoop
I’d been cautious sidekick before
but this time I was promised a waterfall
We took the steep path downhill of course
while you told me stories
and I tried to keep my balance
I did fall and you laughed
and I freaked out
while you told me this happened
all the time when you were kids
and the itching and the rash would go away
I still get tingles when I think of it
and then we made it
two kindred souls
scrunched up in a tiny cave
behind a waterfall
practising poetry
practising kindness
over layers of anxiety
sitting still on rocks
bathed in sunshine
beckoning the quiet
to fill us with knowing
I can barely recall the journey back
we have left so many places since then
but your laughter resounding against my clumsy
and your thoughtfulness
realised in hindsight
still make me feel safe
my gig anxiety from my fearoftheunknown anxiety
as we got into the car for our little adventure
well, you knew where we were going
and I was just content being a part of your past and
your present in one fell swoop
I’d been cautious sidekick before
but this time I was promised a waterfall
We took the steep path downhill of course
while you told me stories
and I tried to keep my balance
I did fall and you laughed
and I freaked out
while you told me this happened
all the time when you were kids
and the itching and the rash would go away
I still get tingles when I think of it
and then we made it
two kindred souls
scrunched up in a tiny cave
behind a waterfall
practising poetry
practising kindness
over layers of anxiety
sitting still on rocks
bathed in sunshine
beckoning the quiet
to fill us with knowing
I can barely recall the journey back
we have left so many places since then
but your laughter resounding against my clumsy
and your thoughtfulness
realised in hindsight
still make me feel safe